i
can't
breathe

I'm hesitating


Went to watch the Nike Human Race today. It was totally cool ok!!! Great great experience man. Just that it was damn crowded, esp at the Mrt Station. I couldn't find Shijie ok. That stupid spiky mor kor never bring his handphone.. So I wasn't able to contact him. In the end I started walking to the Esplanade myself and met him on the way.

Took a lot of pictures for the research. We were damn on task ok :) And we saw Mr Cheng! Haha. Stupid. He didn't want to let us see him I guess, but too bad, we saw him and even took a picture. Heh! Msged him after that saying "your attire was hot!!" LOL. Shijie's idea!

Walked back to the Mrt Station after a while and met Sis. Shijie left and we went for dinner at Soup Spoon yaye. Shopped around after that and left home. I was damn disgusted by this uncle who was standing in front of me leaning so closely and watching me play my DS. Fuck him man.

LOL. Look at this:
when sweetness bonds two, | Promise you, says:
you know who's that uncle?
natalie! says:
until my sister told me then i looked up at him
natalie! says:
then he look away
natalie! says:
dont know
when sweetness bonds two, | Promise you, says:
haha
when sweetness bonds two, | Promise you, says:
that was me
natalie! says:
he very smelly lol
natalie! says:
LOL
when sweetness bonds two, | Promise you, says:
LOL
when sweetness bonds two, | Promise you, says:
no
when sweetness bonds two, | Promise you, says:
then thats not me
when sweetness bonds two, | Promise you, says:
=.=

Haha! :x
Anyw, after that I saw Kenneth Tay at Amk Hub. LOL he stunned. And there was a little "dispute" between the usual 3 people. And they ended up calling me (dumb ass + asshole) dumb asshole. Stupid peoples. You all damn good!

Okay la. I was supposed to study with this person who wanted me to study from 9 to 11. LOL. Now I'm left with 40 minutes. Die :x Bye!

Dear A Math student, EXPAND!
I wonder how Mrs Thang will react when she sees the above!

Today has been a sucky day cos I'm down with flu and sore throat. My head feels heavy and my nose was blocked for the whole day. Damn it, must be because I kept laughing at Cindy's voice for the past few days. :/

Just ate medicine at 830 so that the medicine will take effect and I'll go and sleep soon. Msg from Junho was funny, "eh blind mouse! time to eat your medicine!" Lol, he's really a good friend eh, he shoo-ed me once I signed in to Msn just now! ><

Ok 10 minutes more and time's up! Goodnight everyone :)





My tears run down like razorblades and no, I'm not the one to blame: it's you, or is it me?
And all the words we never say come out and now we are all ashamed. And there's no sense
in playing games, when you've done all you can do.

‘Cause you keep me coming back for more
And I feel a little better than I did before

Back to school today ~
Quite waste of time hur. Didn't play handball for PE today, instead we watched the handball finals 2004. Hiong leh lol. After that was A Math, I seh for the whole lesson cos I didn't know that there was A Math and I didn't bring a single thing except foolscap -.-
Went for the concert after that, candyman part was so funny lol. We (Cindy and me) were still asking Mr Chew this in the morning - " Mr Chew, why this teacher always got a ai kun look on his face one ar? " (no offence!)

Went for lunch with Cindy after that, I was damn hungry cos no curry puff breakfast today :( Home after that, slack slack slack and napped (yaye!). Darn lack of sleep cos I fell asleep only at 12+ last night. Wanted to msg people and wake them up to entertain me but can't think of anybody who is most probably not asleep leh.

Anyw, my sister calls me a game freak now cos I'm obsessed with playing the games on my phone and of cos, the DS. I just downloaded a few games namely CSI and need for speed (lame la i know) and I've been playing it since yesterday. Hope it doesn't affect my "hunger"! lol!

Darn my sore throat. Hope it recovers tmr :( There's the nike human race this sunday and I'm gonna take some photos of it for the cmps. But there's a problem.. Anetta and Xinjie cannot make it, Cindy says she most probably can't too cos of Josephine, and I'm sure about Huishi.. If that's the case, then I must go with the spiky mor kor (Shijie) alone lei!! Please somebody do something about this, if not it's gonna be very weird on Sunday! Hope Cindy or Huishi can make it suddenly la. :(

Okay Junho says he's a good friend and he's asking me to shoo to remind me to go study. Thanks ar remember don't eat so much oreos! Lol. Bye :)

du zi tong du zi tong du zi tong!!
Gave school a miss today, didn't really intend to skip school actually, all because of my mummy who psycho-ed me.. HAHA
Well guess it was a good choice, cos I've been gone to the toilet quite a number of times alr.. Can't stand my stomach. So bloody chui. Now I wonder what was the trigger for this again.

So yes I'm slacking at home. I need to download some new songs man. I listen to my outdated songs till I wanna puke alr. Any kind souls wanna update me? >< I feel that I'm such a slacker. I gotta be hungry!!

Okay no more crapping. I have to go alr byeeeee
And Malcolm Han I'm not emo-ing! Remember what we said last night hor haha

Today is such a dumb dumb day!!
SS test sucked, A Math test SUCKED EVEN MORE. Damn the bloody calculator ok!!!!
And after that when Dad came to pick me up, I opened the bloody door and the edge hit my cheek k!!! Now got baluku, lol.

Tell me what kind of lame day is this!!!!

Beep, beep on
Now there goes my phone
And once again
I’m just hoping it’s a text from you

I was damn hungry during school today, so glad I'm finally able to concentrate so well! Physics test was not too bad, my mugging did pay off. Heh (:
I'm currently panicking cos there are 2 tests tmr, A Math and SS. But I'm still doing the Cmps, just finished discussing with Shijie over the phone. Actually it's kinda fun organising a run. Be sure you guys support it next year k!
Okay la must run off to study alr. BYE

So fucking glad I didn't send out the message last night before I slept.
Last night I ate my cake without a candle (I forgot to take the candle), so darn pathetic. I was damn sad cos I didn't have a chance to make a wish this year. I didn't care, so I pretended as if there was a candle, and made a wish. I needed that wish desperately, lol.

School sucked today, ahhh I hate the upcoming tests too
Intensive mugging from this week onwards, seriously hope I don't slack!
People if you see me online for more than 2 hours please ask me to go off and study.
Thanks!

Reply to tags:
Junho - You're on time, but still not the first! Thanks anyw ;D
Xinjie - Thanks genius!
Neh - I love the card you made, haha, I saw all the food around the card!
Joey - Thanks twinny!
Yenni - Inform you when I get the mail, thanks!
Malcolm - Thanks wonderful friend! Where's my update, date due alr!!
Jean - I want ice-cream too, retard :(
Rochelle - Latecomers are not entertained :x haha joking! Thanks friend (:

Broken, so broken

Happy birthday to me!
Thanks to all who wished, and for remembering :)

Last night was super funny, a couple of people were countdown-ing with me, and then at 1159PM Malcolm Mr wonderful friend called and wished me happy birthday. I told him 'siao arh, haven't yet la' and he insisted that it was 12 alr and my clock was too slow. So yeah, be honoured, you're the first haha! And Malcolm Han if you see this, better text me ok, you have yet to update me!!! Lol. ;D

My kummie girlfriend celebrated my birthday for me today. Thanks girl, but you suck for spamming my money early in the morning!!! Shall elaborate no further, I'd say it's a good day, just that we somehow wasted our day walking around, being "headless chickens" I'd say, that's the term Jem taught me in the past haha.

Actually birthday is nothing much, it's still another simple day in life, just that you grow older by a year. But still, thanks everyone!
PS: I bid goodbye to my cookies and cream ice-cream, ahhhh Jean! :(

Handball's fun! We tried shooting today and I tried being the goalkeeper before the goalkeepers reached. I cannot be a goalkeeper, I think most of the time I will have "own goal" lol! Anyw, PE today was kinda tiring, sweated a lot. Huishi was damn irritating cos she kept appearing in front of me and catch the ball that was supposed to be thrown to me!! So pekchek lor!!

We received our progress report today! Be proud of me k, I didn't fail any subjects. I'm proud of myself! But my results suck la. A lot of tests just pass only. And Anetta had more As than me. :( Nvm, if I lose somebody will treat me so that's good also xD

So after school, the girls were very kind and treated me to Fish & Co. Had a great lunch then walked around, and after that we went to Annlyn's house to do the usual things - play cards. Today's not my day, rather glad that we didn't play with money for Daidee. However we played In Between and the game ended quite quickly cos Xinjie and Huishi played with only 20cents and 30cents respectively. I lost, Nehneh was the winner!

Played all the way till 515, we never seem to get tired of playing cards! Most of them went for tuition and Huishi accompanied me till Dad reached to fetch me home. Had a good day today, thanks girls :) I'm looking forward to a good day with Cindy this Sunday. Hope everything turns out great, you better plan it well you kummie :) Sorry Yenni. I alr promised Cindy before you asked me.

Time really flies. 2 days later and I'll turn 15, and a month later our Eoys will be here. A few months later and it'll be December holidays and one year is gone. So many things happened in just a year, and fuck, I feel so empty inside now, mood's turning bad bad bad after something that Jean told me. Why am I so affected? I shouldn't be. Fuck.

I should start pigging and studying tmr. Boy, you should too.

Yawns, so tired. I don't know why I came online lol. But I'm finally catching up with Jean on Msn! Feels great heh.

I won a packet of peach sweets today ~ So happy hur, this "system" has been making me look even more forward to taking back my test papers. And I got back my Hmt test paper today, sucked, 32/50!! Hope that with this 'lan' grades it will still help me to win my 2 cheese tofu!

Home-d right after school, did a little of Chemistry and E Math and all my brain cells died. Headed out for dinner and we were lost at Yishun. I waited around an hour before I can finally have dinner la, almost died of hunger. So we went to this Bottle Park place near Hweewen's house. The food there was not bad and the scenery was rather great (: On the way home, Dad said he will bring me to wherever I wanted to go for dinner this Sunday. I want to eat Fish & Co!!! Like they will ever eat that with me. High cholesterol food. ><

I feel like eating ice-cream!!! Ice cream please fly to my house now :(

Happy birthday Yenni!

School was pretty ok, I really hate having A Math lesson after recess though, I will feel damn drifty and won't be able to concentrate much.. Anyway rushed my English homework after school and left school with Nehneh. She went home while I went to Cp, bought Yenni's tiny little birthday cake and headed to her house.

She shared her lunch with me and then together with her mum, we celebrated her birthday. The picture on the cake was Cookie Monster, ofcos, I bought that on purpose. *smiles

She said she wanted to do something simple. She wanted to go to GMS and pray, then to Bishan Park to play. So we took 88 for around an hour with non-stop of talking and reached J8. Unfortunately we did none of the things she wanted to do, we ended up gg to the lib borrowing some books (she managed to psycho me to haha), eating tako and walking around at J8. Saw Ziqi, long time no see eh. Bought Yenni's present, the DIY thingy that she wanted, and also a present for nehneh!

Home at 6, something super funny happened at home, shan't elaborate though. And I was told not to engage in water activities for the next few months. I better take the advice, I'm scared x.x Watched a little bit of Olympics, was like O.O when Nigeria won Belgium 3-0. Wth! Damn dian x.x

Bye, I wanna go off to read my book/ be hungry soon. :)
Really really hope the most disappointing thing won't happen on 24aug.. 5 more days, so damn long, I wanna do something, right Yenni? ;D

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like 'Oh well'
Each time you let me down

Happy birthday to Yenni in around 2 hours time!
Her Msn just broke down and I didn't realise, I thought mine broke down lol.

Today was a typical schoolday.
Just that the only two teachers who came were Mr Chee and Mr Chew. We had a relieve teacher for Geog and Hist again. Damn, I don't know how the hell we're gonna finish the syllabus man. And also, Hmt test sucked. The chengyu thingy damn difficult la, 25/50 marks insecure. -.- I remember qn 17,18,19,20 I seh damn long. -.- But I still want my A for Hmt!!

Going to Sengkang to meet Yenni tmr. This time I'll be going there alone... Nobody's free. :(
Nvm, still hope that tmr will be a great day!
Happy early birthday to Yenni!

That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

Eek, I feel sad

Watched the table tennis finals and Singapore lost to China. :(
Well, at least there's a silver medal, so good job!
Badminton finals too, Malaysia lost to China.
Lin Dan is seriously quite pro. But too pro, so he's like kinda sickening to me. Lol :x
A silver medal to Malaysia, quite good uh :)

(we belong together)
"the pain reflected in this song
ain't even half of what
i'm feeling inside"
lol!

Goodnight bunnies.

Wish I was her.

Natalie is slacking!!
Okay I don't care I'd better start studying. My target today is to finish:
-Chem, A math, E Math TYS, English compre, Geog mindmap
-Yenni's birthday card

Although its only two points, its a lot lor! And I have to finish all of them by 730PM cos I wanna watch table tennis finals tonight. I wasted the whole of yesterday watching Olympics. The 100m men winner was like siao la. He run damn fast like flying! And Italy lost to Belgium last night and didn't make it to Semi-finals. So sad, and the jersey number 9 in Belgium sucks!

Ok I shall stop being Olympics siao, I need to be hungry!
I love my blog songsxsxzx

I have no mood to blog.

Simple day today. Started off with PE, handball was indeed fun. I tried to shoot for 32940385 times but only shot one cone down. Amazing, dumb enough? And Shijie said he could hear us screaming from the field. :/

Oh btw, exams schedule's out. Fuck man, we gotta start chionging again..








That's all, bye.

I'm tired, I really am. I'm falling asleep during class (esp A Math) and can't seem to concentrate. Time really flies and Eoy's around the corner alr. Damn.

Chionging project. Bye.
(PS: Remember to have fun (without me) k?)

I was so in love with you
There was nothing I could do
Wouldn't give me the time of day
Now you wanna be with me
You say you wanna be with me

You said I was the best
Gave your love out the rest
There was nothing I could say
It's going good for me
You say you wanna be with me
Now

Yeah you're telling me that
I am where it's at
But I ain't having none of that....

Because I told you, you would look to regret it,
And now I don't wanna make you feel bad,
But when it comes to me just forget it,
I'll be the best you never had,
You put me through so many emotions,
Now baby it's besides the fact,
'cause in your empty heart I had left a mark,
The best you never had.

You saw me as a friend,
Baby I don't want revenge,
But if you must know the truth,
What you didn't see in me
Reflects what you will never be now,
When you're telling me I was always the one,
I feel your desperation.

Because I told you, you would look to regret it,
And now I don't wanna make you feel bad,
But when it comes to me just forget it,
I'll be the best you never had,
You put me through so many emotions,
Now baby it's besides the fact,
'cause in your empty heart I had left a mark,
The best you never had.

Back rubs, good love, my stuff
That's what you missed out on
My touch... show much we could have
You miss,
My kiss,
My lips,
The love I had for you
Our song, so long

Because I told you, you would look to regret it,
And now I don't wanna make you feel bad,
But when it comes to me just forget it,
I'll be the best you never had,
You put me through so many emotions,
Now baby it's besides the fact,
'cause in your empty heart I had left a mark,
The best you never had.

Because I told you, you would look to regret it,
And now I don't wanna make you feel bad,
But when it comes to me just forget it,
I'll be the best you never had,
You put me through so many emotions,
Now baby it's besides the fact,
'cause in your empty heart I had left a mark,
The best you never had.

Well I will always be the best you never had

Happy birthday Delcine, I still remember how cute you are!

Nehneh just messaged me and told me she's having a fever. Wow she's fucking hot 39.5 degree celsius. Take care! Don't come to school tomorrow, will make me have a higher chance of winning cheese tofu lol ;D

Today we received our Geog test results, certainly sucked. First to get paper was me, 14/25. Prayed that Cindy and Neh can get lower than me, cos I want my cheese tofu! Next was Cindy, 14/25 too. Then we prayed that Neh will get 13 and guess what, she really got 13!! However after that, the girls were very determined to fight for their marks so each of them got another mark each after spotting some marking errors.. I can't find any mark so there goes my cheese tofu! Neh sucks. She deprived me of my cheese tofu!!! Should have won the stupid toto la. Then I got a whole year supply of cheese tofu. -.- Okay that was lame.

Training today was damn slack, although me and Xinjie almost died of "jelly-ness". Lol. Loved the part where we sat on the floor and did setting together, too bad Jacq left us so early, if not we will definitely have more fun! Friday really steady arh Xinjie? How arh, psycho me more leh..

Hi Jem, I know you're reading this. I just wanted to say if you really want to ask certain things about my blog, you can just ask me about it. But the first thing you should do is to unblock me on Msn or add me back (or whatever). Lol. This is supposed to be friendly not offensive btw, just expressing how I feel lol!
PS: I wasn't supposed to sound irritated or anything. So don't be mistaken.

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doing it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken

Random post.
Anyway, happy birthday Mummy.
Although you can be a super rifle sometimes, I still love you to bits.
Out for dinner soon!

I can't do it, I can't stand the jealousy within me

Cruel to the eye, I see the way he makes you smile

Happy birthday Singapore, happy birthday Weijie
I only have time to upload these 2 photos, check out Annlyn's blog for more
Bye people!

Btw, fking dumb, bitch LOL
Cb damn act siol. Go die la lol.

Bedtime tonight: 1130

Happy birthday Annlyn! 080808 damn sui number yo!
So after school, we waited for Xinjie and Huishi to finish doing their stuff before heading for lunch at Amk. In the meantime, Kummie, Neh and me fixed the destroyed puzzle. Brought it over to Annlyn after we finished and tried to surprise her :) Cindy left after that, while we chiong-ed to Amk Hub to have our lunch.

Lunch was at Fish and Co, all of us almost died of hunger while waiting for us to be seated. Talked super alot while waiting for our food. Neh and I got very ji dong, kept fighting to speak!!! And we were damn crazy over the Toto la ~ $8million tsk! Ate, camwhored, then off to the playground to play blind mice ~ It was the playground beside Tlc la. And I found out that Huishi was from Tlc!!!! So cool I didn't know. Wanted to go in and look for ALICIA but then it felt weird, cos I'm not so shou with Tlc Amk people anyw.. If that was Tlc Cck, I'll definitely rush in!!! :D

Played blind mice and when it was Annlyn's turn, Zhiting, Shijie and Nick appeared and surprised her with a cake. It sounds so nice right ~ You wouldn't want to know what happened after that. Horrible cake fight, bloody obscene. And I got smired just because I was trying to take a photo of Annlyn. (After that I smelled like milk -.-)

Shijie: Eh, are you all free? ^^
Me: MAHJONG!!!!!!!!!!!
Neh: Yayayaya mahjong!!!!!
Nick: *Laughs
I don't know why la, but everytime Shijie asks me this question I will think of MAHJONG!! Maybe cos of viwawa lor. tsk. Anyw we all headed to Annlyn's house after that and Daidee-d till dian ~ We got really addicted and kept on playing la. The guys left at 530 and we continued playing. Anetta and me started teaching Zhiting and Xinjie a new game (Zhiting just named it Connecto) which was kinda confusing. But damn fun eh! Play again next time!

Played till 730 then left, home-d at 8~ This feeling's great la. Love today (:
Btw catching up with Weiseng on Msn. Long lost friend tsk!



BTW XINJIE, FRIDAY STEADY ANOT??? T.T I SCARED!!!!

I'm happy, I won cheese tofu yippeeeeeee
I'm not happy, I hate youuuuu
I'm happy, life's back to normal
I'm not happy, my Chem test suckkkk, I want my SOLERO
I'm happy, we're celebrating Annlyn's birthday tmrrrr
I'm not happy, I feel stupiddddd
I'm happy, I love my girlsssss
I'm not happy, I'm regrettingggg
I'm happy, my birthday's cominggggg
I'm not happy, fuck you.
I'm happy, I might be going to KL sooooooooooooooooooooooon
I'M NOT HAPPY!

Fuck you.

Miley Cyrus - 7 Things
I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared
It was awesome, but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change until you hear
My dear

The seven things I hate about you
Oh, you
You're vain
Your games
You're insecure
You love me, you like her
You made me laugh, you made me cry, I don't know which side to buy
Your friends, they're jerks when you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward and silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology
When you mean it I'll believe it
If you text it I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh, I'm not coming back
You're taking seven steps here

The seven things I hate about you
You're vain
Your games
You're insecure
You love me, you like her
You made me laugh, you made me cry, I don't know which side to buy
Your friends, they're jerks when you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention
The seven that I like

The seven things I like about you
Your hair
Your eyes
Your old Levi's
When we kiss, I'm hypnotized
You made me laugh, you made me cry, but I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hand in mine when we're intertwined, everything's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I like the most that you do
You make me love you

I never play DS for 3 freaking days alr !@#$%^#$@&

Dad: Eh, 现在有 Brazil vs German leh
Me: Huh, 真的 arh? Eh 我要看
Dad: 可是是女人的 leh
Me: Huh, ee. 我不要看 liao
I miss Euro cup and Euro fever :( Villa!! :(

Nothing much. Boring life :/
Must chiong A Math at night alr if not Christopher's gonna send me for detention :(
BTW, CHEESE TOFU FEVERRRRRR!!! :DDDDD

I'M HUNGRY!

I'm in love with a ds, cos it's always there and helps me to kill time :)

Met up with Anehneh today @ Hg Mall, she was slacking with her bloody heavy laptop @ lib while waiting for me. We went to buy presents for the girls, and yaye finally it was settled. Went over to Cindy's house to work on the present that we bought for them. I think I'm like almost a regular visitor of Cindy's house la. I have been going there rather often (in my opinion).
I had to go like an hour later and I bet the bitches were cursing me when I left :/ So sorry girls. Promise to do more for the next one! Went to buy porridge for this sick guy. Slacked, played the ds game and looked damn retarded. Oh and I know about the magic trick le heh heh ;D

Okay I have to be hungry for success!

Fuck it.
I feel fucked up again :(
I'm sorry, real sorry.
You were really clever to do that though.
So I guess, that's all?
Still, thanks for everything.

Update update!
I just like to update my blog can anot, don't need any comments from anyoneee.
Stupid lennon damn clever hor, once I blog you read liao, genius win alr la?
(that was supposed to be a pun, and I hope you will read this part)
It's 12.10AM and I'm bright awake slacking on Msn. I was supposed to go off an hour ago but I stayed on cos I really didn't want to go la. Thought with me staying on things will be better but then it somehow got worse or remained the same? My icebreaker didn't work, sigh.
Anyway hello Yen for tagging and talking to herself, she and her dumb actions really makes me laugh la LOL! And we both realise that some people are just too kpo and interested in my life la hur, just fk off and die bye! And people, I've got a name and that's NATALIE! Thanks girl for always being there, heh love you to bitsxz la :D
Btw sorry for this post, it sounds damn weird I know I don't know what I'm saying too, a little too crude at some parts so sorry!

I surrender, really

Okay that's all for the pictures.
And I know my fringe sucks currently, I will go cut it asap so CINDY LIAN you stop saying la!!!
The most you don't look at me la can! Fker bitch. HAHA


















I'm bored. I shall go play DS now.

Ok so something did happen again, but I don't know what.
Now I feel fucking deceived again.
A lot of things are going through my mind.....
Maybe I'm just too dumb to understand.
(PS nobody to ask me about this AT ALL. )

Today was birthday celebration for the August babies, Huishi Annlyn and me, well we seemed like triplets. Lunch-ed at Sakae, then we went crazy playing kiddish games at the neighbourhood.. Hope won't receive any complaints, right girls?

Back to Hg point for some ice cream. After which I accompanied Cindy to meet Reggie. Made myself invisible (although I started crapping at times). Then back to Cindy's house, she helped me with some A Math. The stupid holiday homework that I owe since 6 weeks ago -.-

Okay that's about all. Blog more tmr with pictures.